Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God.”
Do you live by the truth? If not, you live in darkness. The Messiah is the truth. You have to pull up the white flag, and surrender. Do not cast doubts about the correctness of His teachings, but do His will. The perfect will of God can only be found in the Bible. The Holy Spirit call you into the light, and will lead you into all the truth you need at the appointed time.